kim kardashian wedding a flop deemed too materialistic or a glamorous one?

 Personally Kim Kardashian's wedding was too much to take, too much publicity stunts i could not stand it. For me there was no dramatic effect, it was lavish all right the guests are in awe of the decorations and the food, the reception and the guests...but here you can see the difference of a celebrity wedding from real weddings and from the royal wedding. The royal wedding was also publicized but I was not this annoyed, i love kim kardashian  before---not until i realized the reality of her not being real.
well it would be normal for you to say that i am just jealous. well I dont like her life at all, its full of publicity stunts, full of make-up, full of costumes. I feel the whole part of it is like a plastic cup. Its like a big plastic full of lies that become truths. I can no longer stand her.
Dont get me wrong Kim Kardashian is certainly beautiful and a certified fashion icon, voluptuous and all, but i have stopped admiring her,,,when she started selling her wedding photos for 1.5 million, talk about tasteless.

I was not impressed with the Vera Wang Gown, well its a beauty, but the purity, the simplicity of the occasion was not there. I am not a celebrity---and this is one of celebrity ceremonies that I do not dream to become a part of. its all about the food that they ate, the beauty of the place, the freebies. its sickening, this people dont even know each other. ( i so think that they don't)
I have had enough of reality tv shows, in truth they are not realistic at all and when they try to be dreamlike they suck.
Good luck with Kim Kardashian and her husband, i hope they last. Honestly it would suck to hear another celebrity divorce after a glamorous wedding isnt it?

The only good thing about the Kardashians-i do not think they are taking drugs and they do not appear like drunkards to me unlike Lindsay Lohan nowadays. so all in all i think they handle their fame well and they rake in millions of dollars for just being themselves---but on the other hand is America too bored? there is nothing else to watch that they produce this kinds of reality tv shows? where is the thrill, the knowledge in this kinds of trash tv shows?

I guess people will have varying opinions, this is the last time i will write about KIm Kardashian,because I am sick of her, her face is everywhere, she should honestly give it a rest before people get tired of her.

the power of meditation

Nothing in life is worth arguing for- now if i could only convince myself that it is the truth then i could truly live in peace. I have taken this habit of sitting in my room and emptying my thoughts for 15 minutes or more. Sometimes I just think about the grass, the wind, the water, the sea, the deep ocean, the eyes of the tiger, the flowers, the rain---the trees---nature, and nothing else. During this times i feel complete, that everything i need in life is already there. Sometimes I think about the one man I love and I smile, I keep on generating thoughts about positive things that will happen to me and him. I am very happy during this moments, the joy is pure, there are no expectations from anybody. No family members to nag you and tell you to become this or that, no television to trick you into thinking that you are not enough, no harsh comments from friends regarding weight, no need to talk about money, or politics. no need to gossip about neighbors or think about what food i will eat> it is just me and this peaceful world. Feeling the connection with the universe, is so strong. In the past I had always advocated against many things like tuition fee increase, weight problems even to the point of starving myself, i got overly obsessed with finding a way how to become popular myself- drinking sprees, never ending coffee conversations, rationalization, questioning the meaning of life and so and so forth, getting depressed when things do not go my way- and wanting to change the world because I was forever discontented. And then  i just woke up one day and got tired of it all. Fighting the world, screaming and shouting,changing my appearance, maintaining a so called discipline for others, maintaining a certain weight to be loved, arguing, trying so hard to be noticed, to gain the attention of others- its just not me anymore. Nowadays i just shy away from conversations. after all i am slowly realizing that life is more about living in peace together with the elements. Animals and trees, never mind the expectation of humans or my own expectation about humans- it just really does not matter anymore, Love is always inside me. I can never find it with others even if i try hard enough- it is just here inside me, living, thriving.. I find watching the birds, the trees, the flowers soothing, its like there is no idea in me that is left regarding the need to prove myself with clothing or with my current social status. i dont have the energy to criticize anymore, i dont really care about politics, the condition of any country or my hair. Sitting there and emptying my thoughts, or sometimes visiting a vast plain of land, grassy mountaintop, feeling the call of the universe in that 15 to 20 minutes of silence is enough- i have all that i need. Happiness within. the glorious feeling of putting everything down, and not resisting anything- i hope to feel higher and elevated as i continue to love myself and heal myself---my thoughts are calmer this days, my sleep is more relaxed. I have everything that i need in life...

boybands

 the title says it all...boybands.ath

i was inspired to write abut this segment due to a dream i had last night. i saw myself watching a concert together with my sister and cousins. i was rather mesmerized because the band that was playing was the moffatts. for those who have never listened or encountered this band- well they were very popular in Asia and  Canada in the 90s. Although this band was packaged as boybands-they did play their own music and they wrote their own songs. well they are not rockbands and cannot be classified as such but to a 12 year old like me they were godsend during those days. hehehe. i am 23 years old now and got past the obsession. i was to enamored with their lead singer scott moffatt in the past, then suddenly i went to college and had forgotten all about them- at times i would even deny that i was a die hard fan in the past. i guess what im saying is that i woke up to a whole new me, i could not or i am having a hard time connecting with my past- it really is a dream.
i decided to write this page as my sort of honor page for this bands. well i know they are not exactly what you call music worthy or i am not claiming their music is superior when compared to dream theater. well they cannot even be compared or must not be compared. but well...well sort of an honor for accompanying me all this years. they bring this nostalgic part in me, something that perhaps would never come back.
there was no facebook or twitter, blogs when this bands got really popular. we only had tv and radio promotions and yet this bands were able to make an impression on us. well i know it was wrong when i got to obsessed with the moffatts in the past-but they did some great things in my life,  without even meeting them. I was surely thrilled to feel something heavenly and charming whenever i listen to their music or look at their photos- boybands give you something that real boys would not be able to give. how the heck would 12 year old boys my age in the past would be able to capture my attention those days...frankly i had a lot of good times memorizing their song and collecting their albums. sort of a hobby. looking back now, i have changed so much, this bands are now just a part of a distant past that only some people my age would be able to relate to. it was just fun you know dreaming about them. remembering who i was--and then seeing how my choices have changed. how  i now understand how silly and funny my daydreams were. hahahah...lol wala lang i just really wanted to pose something silly, funny,nostalgic and something that could cause trouble for me hahaha anyway deny it all you want but i know you did sing some of this boyband songs....backstreet boys, nsync, 911, gil ofarim, aaron carter, westlife. |A1

the love of cats

 i guess no words can really explain it, but it would try, i would attempt. i am absolutely in love with cats. i have 3 pet cats but only one is staying with me, the other one is with my boyfriend and the other stays with my mom. the name of my pet cat is mirmo- he is a pure ball of joy  just staring at him makes me grin. i do not know why but this feeling  for cats can only be achieved by my boyfriend. hehehe. yeah i guess i have four pet cats in reality,.
i dont know why  there are other people who feel the need to kick animals. yes, i understand that cats can create problems with their waste, but they can be trained. there is no need to kill them or see them as annoying. i cant even imagine my life without my cat, it would just feel empty. they have a mysterious effect on me, when you look at a cat sitting near a window it is as if they are meditating, its as if they understand more of life than we do. i miss the cats that i lost throughout the years, some of them i had to give away while some of them died due to sickness. i know i can never prevent them from dying, but i sure hope that they still stay with me for a much longer time.my cat moi who is staying with my mom is sick right now, but i am trying all my best to  provide care. i would visit him on saturday and bring him his favorite dish, clean his runny nose and eyes. i have a strong feeling he will make it. humans and animals, we both need to co exist, there is no need to kill or hate,.. i guess people would only understand this love for animals, once they really sense the connection, it is deep. overflowing and fills you with love...

the banquet the movie: zhang zi yi( 2006) movie review

 well this review regarding the banquet might be 5 years late, but well i have decided to make reviews based on films that i have actually watched, since  i was not able to watch this 5 years ago, let me have my verdict on it.
well the costume, the place, the environment and the props was superiors. the lighting was good, visually speaking it was a work of art. As for the story, well i was enchanted for the first 45 minutes, then eventually got bored, The movie was too long, that is why the concept got repeated over and over again. But i must congratulate the director, the producer and zhang zi yi, it was still an art packed film, filled with colors and movements, and the characters seemed to be dancing while fighting. it was dream like i mean compared to other films, it was definitely better than sucker punch a thousand times and contains witty statements along the way. The story however, is not unique if we will review other chinese films. The craziness of the empress, the emperor and the prince is apparent, we get it power freaks go nowhere, but the chinese just seem to have a way of making the story chaotic a midst the calmness and serenity of the film. Well it was still really fictional you know, but the kind that you can forgive. The story would have been good if it had ended with some power and vengeance.oh but i guess to each his own. i give it a B-.

love and other drugs: anne hathaway, jake gyllenhaal, movie review:

 What can i say????---wow this movie is refreshing,the preview wasn't all that great, but the movie turned out to be golden. Congratulations anne hathway ( she kind of reminded me of Julia roberts, only more seductive and open)jake gyllenhaal , well i never thought that there would come a day when i would actually like this guy, he finally found a role where i could admire him. He was good with this role, fantastic as a salesman and a swooning macho man( ok that might not be the perfect word for him) but i love the combination. There was chemistry in the film, plus the story was genuine and even if it is not the most original movie concept---it worked. My boyfriend and I really enjoyed it, it was a chick flick, but a chick flick with flair, sensuous, captivating, fun and dramatic sometimes. it is perfect, i will recommend it for moviegoers out there who want something mind boggling for a moment.  The story makes sense, has some key insights, it was successful in provoking emotions in me, it made me sensitive, open and vulnerable, i almost cried. it was really that good. wow, kudos, it is very rare that i get impressed with a chick flick....
this is definitely way better than the crappy vampire concept out there. If you  want an inspiring love story movie..watch this one!o yah and by the way it was also very funny, there were essential key ingredients that would make viewer's laugh, the brother of jake in the story was hilarious.!
and for men, yeah, anne hathaway does bare it all for a few seconds! but for a good reason, i did not see it as cheap at all, i think she really has blossomed into a high profile actor! way to go anne!

yellow brick road movie review

 Was it scary? that is the question...well the answer, it was for the first 20 minutes then after that the movie just get weirder and weirder...and the final chapter was another disappointment. you see this is why im nt fond of horror movies. I rarely watch them, they dont teach you anything, they just teach you to watch out for the fearful concept and when there is none the movie goes nowhere.  Some of the cast were great actors, however many of them are complete nobodies, i think they have tried to imitate the low budget film paranormal activity but then they just failed.
There are a few good points, like the first concept that they had, was what if there was a god, a certain god waiting for them at the end of the road, only to realize that this particular god does not want them there. The second scary concept was the eerie old music playing, and the chaotic minds of the people in the story. But after that nothing else is new, good or clear. The music was just irritating, if you watched this in a movie house, you would probably be annoyed. The end part was truly annoying, it was not able to explain the existence of the house element and the movie house was completely irrelevant. However, if you will point this out philosophically, then we can gain a few insights... like for example the yellow brick road seems to signify life, that sometimes people follow a path because they are sure that there is an end to it., that after reaching the road they will see something that they like, or they will be given peace, but what if the road understands what needs to happen and the road does not want to take us there....life.if you take it this way then the movie makes sense, but i dont think the writers intended it this way, the ending was just sucky and took the glory out of the film, I give it. a C+